Notes from the road – edition 18: Time to reflect
On Tuesday I graduated from my Yoga Teacher Training course. I’m a certified hippie and damn proud of it.
Having the month off social media and dedicating my time entirely to my mind and body has given me an incredible chance to reflect on the year so far and how I want to move forward.
I started the year with a lot of expectations. I put an immense amount of pressure on myself to achieve goals in a few weeks or months that ‘realistically’ (as much as I hate the word) would take much longer. When I didn’t achieve these goals immediately, I became impatient and my thought patterns took a turn for the worse.
I’ve built up a lot of stress around the idea of money and time. I often approach the two from a mindset of scarcity, constantly worrying about how I’m spending both. While awareness is healthy, overt levels of control is not.
Being forced to take things at a much slower pace this month has taught me a lot. although I’m not going to pretend like every lesson is straight forward. Some seem clear now, their freshness guaranteed by the proximity to the first point of learning. While others are still fuzzy around the edges but will grow less obscure as time progresses and more experience is gained.
The greatest responsibility we have in life is to ourselves. To being better than yesterday, without compromising tomorrow.
Normally when I have experiences like this, I’m forced back into an environment where I don’t get the opportunity to reflect and implement what I’ve learned. Since Tuesday, I’ve been fortunate enough to have a few days to simply relax and ease back into life. I’ve built a habit of practising yoga every morning, I’ve reconnected with my journaling routine, which waned a little during the course, and I’ve taken to setting a part of the day aside to deliberately do nothing – an incredibly paradoxically productive practice.
I’ve always lived my life a little impatiently. Constantly jumping from one thing to the next without a proper appreciation for how sweet taking your time can make a thing.
But now, in these moments of nothing mentioned above, I find happiness not as I’ve always looked for it. It’s not dramatic and monumental as the outside influences in life would have us believe it should be. It’s simple, and basic, and far more beautiful, because it was right there the whole time, only now I have the eyes to see it.
That’s all for this week. Until next time, happy voyaging!